Venomous Nomad

there are a lot of things that I regret.. and mainly it is having met the people that I have met. such bad influences, such evil conniving and sick people. Not even in the artistic and dramatic (in a story) way, no.. in the way of wanting to cause harm to someone else purposely for the sake of it. because they’re bored. because they want someone else to feel pain too. 

I don’t want to turn into you. i don’t want to be evil. i don’t want to hurt anyone else, least of all myself. i’m tired of dealing with people like you. and i will eliminate you from my life, however possible i can without any physical violence, unless it has to come down to that, which i hope it won’t. i understand the world is not perfect and i understand that there is almost no such thing as good or innocence.. but there have been people who only want to make others smile, and those are the kind of people i want to surround myself with, so that i can in turn make others smile as well. i’m tired of trolls or rude people, all of you are an obstacle. you make my life worse. you are not funny, amusing, or charming. you are a nuisance. something to avoid. i hope that you read this post and you begin to realize that your ways will get you nowhere except towards depression and an unfulfilled life. 

I have a lot of repressed anger that i want to let out. i have a lot of repressed hurt that i want to get rid of, and i have now gained a new hurt and i don’t want it to overcome me again. i don’t want to be a monster.